My eldest son turned 16 just over a month ago. He’s a
lovely boy, easygoing and rock solid, with a wry sense of humour and a strong
sense of self.
He is his Dad’s mirror image and has inherited some
of X’s finer qualities, but is very much his own young man. I listen to the way
he communicates with his mates and it’s clear that he knows how to be a good
friend. According to my youngest son, he’s also a pretty cool big brother.
He’s got a few good female friends but, as far as I
know, there isn’t anyone special just yet. Right now he’s way too focused on
learning to drive and building on his computer skills so he can follow his
desired career path.
He’s got a plan. He’s sensible, trustworthy and
even-tempered, and gives me not one ounce of grief. Needless to say, I adore
him.
Looking at my boy so grown up and secure in himself has
made me think about myself at the same age. I was living in the middle of the
outback in a pretty chaotic environment, with alcoholism at its core. My
parents were long divorced and my Mum and Stepfather were heading in the same
direction. And to make things just a little more testing, I had recently had my
first experience of heartbreak.
Along with nursing my aching heart, I spent a lot of my
16th year fantasising about finishing school and escaping to the
city to pursue my dream of being a writer. On weekends I had taken to sneaking
out to the local clubs. I was restless and frustrated and wild at heart. I
wanted to grow up way before I was ready to and left home way too young.
If I could
give a piece of advice to the wide-eyed, small-town girl I once was, it would go
something like this:
Stop being in such a hurry… Life unfolds soon enough
and suddenly the years start passing at a rapid pace, to the point that you’ll actually
want them to slow down.
When it comes to matters of the heart, trust that
things will go exactly the way they are meant to and that your truest love will
appear out of thin air, when you least expect him to. In the meantime, focus on
the really important things – family, friends that will be there till the bitter
end, work that makes you happy and travelling to all those faraway places
you’ve always dreamed of.
And re the guy that just broke your heart, he will
quickly pale into insignificance. His role is to deposit a good dose of resilience deep
in your ventricles, to be drawn upon at a later date. When you encounter him
again in 30 years’ time, it will be abundantly clear that you made an extremely
lucky escape.
